What if I believed…
What if, when I feel guilty about the things I have done, I believed you paid for my sins and hold no judgement over me?
What if, when I feel responsible for things that are not mine to own, I believed you see me as right and true?
What if, when I try to fix things in my own strength and do not ask for help from you, I believed that you got this life?
What if, when I look to others for approval, I believed you are all that matters?
If I believed I would…
look at people in the eyes more.
eat more sweets.
go to the movies.
stop the gossip.
let them go first.
I can see that if I believed you loved me I would “do” more, but would I also “be” more?
Would I just be?
Would I let you take over? Would I receive the love you have for me, your way? Would I surrender?
Would I put down the guilt, shame, over-function, and the idols and pick up your forgiveness, righteousness, ownership of me, and receive your Holy Spirit?
This I want. I want to be free and begin to receive. I want to stop the cycle of self saving and decrease.
I want you to increase and be my first thought. My last thought. My everything. I want you to handle my affairs, my future, my life. I want to be in your sidecar. Watching it all. Amazed.
I want to receive you God. Not just small parts of you, but all of you.
Imagine if I walked in my everyday knowing that I have the power of your Holy Spirit within me. To know that I stand in forgiveness, righteousness, and ownership.
What a person I would be and what a life I could live. Wait, scratch that….
What a person you made and what a life you created to tell your story.
I am in.